April 16th 2010
email from me
It’s really really difficult for me to not email you.
I email you so often, so much, because of the frequency with which you pop in my head, and the severity of how much I miss you.
Even with the angry emails, that was why.
email from Stefan
I wanted to text you to ask how you were recovering about ten times today. I haven’t been online today until when I emailed you. In fact…I’m not even really online. I just have youtube playing some god awful paranormal “evidence” video while trying to draw to distract myself. This headache though, christ. It’s ,tea time. Aside form my measly financial plight which I’ll rectify rather quickly, so much is on my mind. My head still races to make sense of things.
I hope you’re feeling better today.
You should have tea too. I’ll be here, so if you see anything neat online, send me at least one link. I could use distraction at the moment.
email from me
I was thinking… that the way both of us have been… both, from the onset, saying “no no no, no romance, no boy/girl friends, no attachments, no no no no etc etc.”, and both reacting to the other, turning into thier wierd snowball of headshaking denial….
well, yeah. we totally confused each other and hurt each others feelings and messed each other up. but. i doubt that either of us would be capable of letting someone be as close and as important to us, without that assumption and acceptance of the “no no no no”
Maybe.
Anyway….
You want links? I give you links.
And we are back to my emailing him links and his emailing me he latest art and chatting daily.