November 15th 2014
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I’m headed to the IFC to see the WFMU documentary. It’s the first screening! It starts just before 5. If you wanna go and meet me there, here’s the link: http://www.docnyc.net/film/sex-and-broadcasting/#.VGewPlfF98u
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Did you go? Any good?
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I did! It was really lovely. A love letter to WFMU. There was an afterparty, which I tagged along to as well. Everyone at WFMU is really awesome and weird. It’s my clan of people.
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Cool. Glad you had a good time.
Also, I see PT isn’t really giving you your desired results you expected. I mean, I read your post, but Is it putting you in… More pain?
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Yes. I am in ridiculous pain. My entire body hurts.
I’m not sure they know enough about my overall condition to treat my problem spots without worsening the rest of me.
Today is a staying in pajamas day.
Oh, and btw, it’s great to see you just busting out the Romance from Beyond comic. It’s inspiring, and makes me somehow less afraid to start drawing this comic I’m avoiding.
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Yeah… you said you over exert yourself easily. You think it triggers pain in certain areas just cause your body is struggling for air or to regulate blood flow when whooped. I remember, (because it reminded me of something I’m gonna bring this up). After sex, you would walk around and like bend your arms back like as if you were touching your elbows. And stretch in a couple funky ways. Was it like, nerve pain or just slight muscle spasms?
And yeah, im trying to draw in that, “get it done” way. In fact, Im dropping a painting off to a client (and no, is not worth seeing… It’s a field of sun flowers and a hallmark saying… Ugh) then I’m going to draw more at Dunkin. Is also great for people drawing on breaks. The characters that show up at this Dunkin are unreal.
Yes… Don’t fear the drawing. Just do it. You’re good at it.
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🙂 Thanks.
Well, with sex, it worked out well that you’d stay for three days straight and then leave, because the day after you left would usually be a “hurting a lot and staying in pajamas” day. As it was, I’d almost always take some tramadol on our way to bed when you slept over, so that I could actually enjoy the time we might end up having. no matter what, I always have to pay a price for physical exertion. Like I mentioned on facebook, it usually takes a day and a half or more for the full pain to set in.
At this point, they think I have some kind of connective tissue disorder, which means all my tissues that aren’t hair or bone, basically. It’s more stretchy than it should be, which explains my youthful face (my skin is more stretchy than strong), but also explains my excessive stretch marks for not having been very fat. Since the tissues are stretchy, my muscles are working harder to actively keep my body together in it’s proper place. So after any kind of exertion, my muscles have been through the equivalent of heavy weightlifting from the double duty. And then, like any hard muscle workout, the muscle tissue repair themselves, which ends up being beyond the normal time frame of muscle soreness: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Delayed_onset_muscle_soreness
I just feel it in every part of my body, practically.
These days, my feet have added themselves to the pile of hurting places. When I walk I can hear the bones shifting and popping, and any time on my feet makes them throb and hurt for days.
That one time I had that fainty siezure thing after sex; well, I think that’s related to this: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Postural_orthostatic_tachycardia_syndrome
Basically, my body doesn’t regulate it’s blood pressure or flow well, which manifests most severely when going from sitting to standing. I already have a tendency to get dizzy when standing too quickly, but add the exertion of sex to that, plus smoking a cigarette, plus temperature difference, and my blood pressure just doesn’t acclimate itself to the change in posture and other changes, so not enough blood got to my brain, and WHAMMO! fainty seizure. When you layed me on your bed, I heard a great WHOOSH in my ears, which was, I think, my blood flow. And then I felt fine.
I am annoyed. I really was looking forward to not going anywhere and just drawing today. But I feel so fucking horrible. My head hurts. I just want to lay down and watch something; a luxury I never afford myself these days.
Prof. Dum Dum mailed me a bunch of his DVDs. https://www.youtube.com/user/billzebub I might watch some of those.
Well, <boyfriend> is at work until midnight, and I’m in my pjs about to watch movies and pet kittens all day. I’m even going to treat myself to order in food tonight.
So, if you want to come by, I can set up a TV tray for you to draw on while I lay down and we can watch things. I mean, it’s no Dunkin Donuts, but it’s home! 😉
I am curled up in bed, filled with delivery Egyptian food, watching Netflix on my computer, surrounded by four purring kittens, one of which is jealous of my petting any other kitten, laying herself on top of any who dare catch my attention, and licks my face like a dog out of affection.
November 20th 2014
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I’ve been writing with my Dad back and forth. Trying to be … family. He brought up not having been introduced to you. I guess it still strikes a chord with him. I reminded him that you DID meet, but on Christmas Eve when he was in the Santa suit; probably not the intimidating fatherly impression he wanted to impose upon you.
We’ll be going there for Thanksgiving. This should be interesting.
I seriously would love to be the colorist of Romance From Beyond. I’ve been dying to color a comic.
Is life and it’s happenings ok with you? How are things? Are you ok?
Want a kitten?
Put together a portfolio on flickr or something of your special effects and set work so I can show Bill Zebub.
Also, check out Society 6. Providing the correct file size and stuff is annoying, but you could make some money selling throwaway drawings by sticking them on objects and wall hanging.
Seriously, are you ok?
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Im not okay. Im… Not even sure where to begin.
Im really groggy right now (a little sick with sinus stuff. The pressure gave me the worst headache I had in a while. It was definitely a migraine. It was a rare deep throb. I’ve had them before, this one was just loooooong. I got it at 8pm…. And it just subsided enough to the point where I could stand. But that’s not the “Im not okay” stuff. But it sucked.
That’s true about your dad. We never had a proper guy introduction. We were never around each other. I met your mom plenty. Because we went to her house and stuff. But it’s good youre writing with him.
I don’t need a kitty. I would like a cat. But I can’t bring one in with Greta. I think a cat would be too much for her. She’s getting old and weird as it is. But maybe I could help you find a suitable home.
I don’t think RFB will be in color. I hadn’t considered that. There was a touch of red in the page were she’s applying lipstick because I didn’t love the layout of the page and don’t plan on using it. But. Maybe I can take a proper scan of a page and we can… Try it to see how it looks. I have another comic Im gonna start that would def be color though.
Anyway… My eyes are still not cooperating so I’m gonna write more later.
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So what is the “I’m not okay” stuff?
Hmmm. Maybe you’d be down for a proper guy introduction with my Dad someday? I think he’d appreciate it.
I’d do a great job coloring your art. I know I would.
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I know you’d do a great job coloring. Im just not sure that i’d want RFB to be in color. In my mind, I want it to look like 50’s TV. Can you take one of the pics I have posted and show me how you’d color it?
November 21st 2014
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OK. I will. But It will take a few days, I’ve got to get up some ads to find these kittens homes. I’m going broke buying them food. I’ve also got to do some drawing towards this comic. I’m ridiculously behind.
If you would like to talk, or g-chat, I’ll be around this evening.
but seriously…. if things are bad, you should come over. Not to talk to me about it, but to hang out with the kittens. They are THE best (legal and non-sexual) thing to improve brain chemistry for a little while.
Also, please do put together a portfolio of some kind of your special effects and prop work. Bill Zebub has been working towards making a Frankenstein film at some point in the future, and if it ever happens, it’s something you should totally work on.
November 21st 2014
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I’m having a sick day. My fucking head. My fucking body.
Company would be nice.
Yours is company I enjoy, and of the only I am comfortable with when sick.
Also, kittens.
Also, don’t forget that I am of awesome assistance to you in the few ways that I’m not useless.