October 9th 2017
email from me
I just got back from my friend’s memorial a little while ago. I saw <The Brother’s Girlfriend> there, which was weird. It was a very WFMU memorial. There was a guest list, sandwiches, snacks, and scheduled guest speakers. His old band mates played some of their old songs. There was a bit of time at the end for others to get up and speak, and so… I actually got up and spoke.
I met him just two years ago, and had pills on me the first time we hung out in person. I didn’t know he was on suboxone. I’m afraid that I was what started this slow downward spiral. About seven months after we started hanging out every week, he scored some dope, and had a stroke. He ended up with some residual pain issues. He had a guy he was getting pills from, but his guy stopped returning his calls, so he turned to me. I was wary.
After Colin died, I absolutely refused. I just couldn’t, no matter how broke I was. I couldn’t do it, morally. I stopped hanging out with him, because I didn’t want to be in that situation. He asked me two additional times for pills. I refused. I really missed hanging out with him. He unexpectedly became my best friend at WFMU.
And then he either tried to shoot tramadol, or he shot up heroin, they aren’t sure. And died.
I know you’ve lost a lot of people to this shit.
But I’ve lost two pretty important and significant people to me in just a few months. I connect with so few people.
You are still a very important and significant person to me.
I really hope you are doing OK. I’d still like to hang out and do something autumnal, even though this weather sucks.
I just looked on the internet to find March of the Pumpkins. Only the first one is on youtube. I guess that’s because there used to be such a prohibitive time limit on uploads, and part 2 was just over ten minutes.
It was TEN YEARS AGO. I mean, when I think about it that makes sense, but still.
Is March of the Pumpkins II up anywhere? I don’t know if I have it anywhere.
Anyway…. please treat yourself well.