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    August 15th

    July of this year, I post a WFMU promo. [IG]

    The diagonal lines of metal and light in the distance brings him to this photograph from July 2014. [flickr]

    In that same [flickr] album are these photographs of birds.

    He draws a bird, the colors from the Hendrix head and WFMU logo in my video, the torn garbage bag makes the witch hat, the wound fence wire makes the pumpkin vines. [IG]

    August 15th

    February 2009. You’d think I would have a gazillion photographs of Stefan drinking a mug of coffee, but I strangely have very few. [IG]

    Remembering. Recreating.


    Three months prior, I photographed a pillar at the Chiller Theater horror convention. [fb]

    He matches the colors and pose, his lettering compositionally where the flyer is on the pillar.


    One month prior, I post mirrored nightstands, with glowing red and blue to the left, and lit windows to the right behind them, and my own maniacal face. [IG]

    This brings Stefan back to a photo I took of him in a NJ diner, mirrored and chrome covered with blue and red neon lights to the left, his own maniacal face.

    In his new photo, the trinity knot is there but partially transparent, the hand tattoos obscured, the chest tattoo hidden, the H visible. Blue and pink neon, red kiss for the red of the diner mat. [IG]

    August 16

    My radio show from one week prior on August 7th posted this image of Alexei Sayle, smiling with flowers round his neck. [WFMU]

    which brings Stefan to my Gramma with a similarly strong nose and grin posing in front of daisies

    which in turn brings him to a young photo of my gramma floating down the passaic river.

    He draws a mashup of my Gramma, flowers now around her neck like Alexei. [IG]


    Two months prior, I post a video of myself at WFMU. [IG] My wincey face brings Stefan back to an auto-upload of my ex-boyfriend from June 2015.

    Stefan combines my ex-boyfriend’s face with my own, and uses strands of my hair and color palette. [IG]

    August 19th

    Two months prior, I post to instagram screenshots of an ad I got in my algorithm. [IG]

    which brings Stefan to a photo I’d taken of injuries during 2004. [flickr]

    He draws my hand, zombified, with the color palette of the ad and my photo combined. [IG]


    Another still from the above video of overpriced jewelry

    brings Stefan to this 2012 photo of my trip to New Mexico. [flickr]

    He draws the chickens, [IG IG] adding colors from the other frames from the ad video.


    Looking at my photos from New Mexico, this photo of a dog [flickr]

    leads him back to this photo from Bed Stuy, Brooklyn. 2005. [flickr]

    He combines the dogs into one drawing, color matching the rocky ground. [IG]


    Still looking at my New Mexico photos [flickr], this photo:

    next to this New Mexico photo:

    brings Stefan back to this photo from June 2007 again of The Brother.

    and to other photos next to each other from my Social Activity [flickr] album.

    Stefan’s stance for the monster, eyes from the wood on the ground, pointy body parts and long nails from the figures in the ipod ads, head shape and color from the green hood, arm shape from bed blanket folds.

    The clouds in the background follow the angle of the mountains and shadow, and match them in color.


    From my [WFMU] radio playlist on August 14th, just four days prior.

    These bring him to a club performance during December 2011. [flickr]

    And nearby photos on flickr from a photo shoot for hire uploaded November 2011:

    They are combined for a bird belly dancer with braids and other details from the shop I’d photographed. [IG]


    Three months prior, I post a selfie showing off my new boots. [fb]

    This leads Stefan to a similarly posed selfie from February 2011 [flickr]

    and other chronologically close photos December 2010 – February 2011

    Becomes a strangely textured mashup. [IG]


    Three months prior, I change my profile picture on facebook. [fb]

    My facial expression and hair color…


    brings Stefan to this photo of my Aunt Mary with me in my gramma-made Pink Panther costume for Halloween.

    He combines our faces, keeps the pink and ears, the shine of her pink glasses becomes shiny cheeks. [IG]

    August 26th

    July 2015. Two [IG IG] photos of Ozzie cat.

    Stefan draws him as a magical whisker wizard. [IG]


    My radio playlist from August 14th one week prior, with this image of my father’s college band, [WFMU] my father in plaid and a white shirt, sneakers, a mandolin at their feet

    leads Stefan to this 90’s photo of Colin wearing wide plaid, a white shirt, sneakers

    and other photos uploaded [flickr] during May 2017 when I was scanning in memory stuff after Colin died (while watching Twin Peaks).

    Stefan draws a clever mashup of elements from the photos, to a love song that mentions mandolins. [IG]

    Nina Simone • Wild is the Wind
    Love me, love me, love me, say you do
    Let me fly away with you
    For my love is like the wind
    And wild is the wind
    Give me more than one caress
    Satisfy this hungriness
    Let the wind blow through your heart
    For wild is the wind
    You touch me
    I hear the sound of mandolins
    You kiss me
    With your kiss my life begins
    You’re spring to me
    All things to me
    Don’t you know you’re life itself

    Upside-down Johnny the Homicidal Maniac makes a bendy skull, the folds and shadow of the flannel makes the smoke tendrils.


    This War of the Worlds gif on my August 14th radio show [WFMU] one week prior

    brings Stefan back to this old Fox Fest phone pic I’d sent Stefan from September 2007.

    and other phone pics from September 2007.

    He combines my faces to create a swamp witch. [IG]


    My [WFMU] playlist from one week prior also included this creepy gif

    which brings Stefan back to this Sticky Friends photo.

    He combines them in his selfie. F for Fox over his heart, the degree circles cover the ring tattoo, the font like the ZOMBIE ANT text. The blurred blocks match the ant gif, his shoulders yellow to match the shirt. [IG]


    The Cure • A Forest
    I hear her voice
    Calling my name
    The sound is deep
    In the dark
    I hear her voice
    And start to run
    Into the trees
    Into the trees
    Into the trees
    Suddenly I stop
    But I know it’s too late
    I’m lost in a forest
    All alone
    The girl was never there
    It’s always the same
    I’m running towards nothing
    Again and again and again and again…

    He posts it with a song about hearing my voice (as in radio) and being in a forest (as in the ant).

    August 28th

    From the same [WFMU] playlist, this gif of Brigitte Bardot and Serge Gainsbourg 

    leads him back to October 30th 2009. The night of the Haunted Hayride.

    He draws Bridgette and I combined, her downturned lips, her curls on my long hair. The pens at the same angle as the power lines, the colors tweaked to match the same blue glow. [IG]


    Massive Attack • Teardrop

    Love, love is a verb
    Love is a doing word
    Fearless on my breath
    Gentle impulsion
    Shakes me makes me lighter
    Fearless on my breath

    He chooses a song about love that mentions breath, like Serge’s smoking.

    August 31st

    From that same August 14th [WFMU] playlist, this gif from The Shining

    leads Stefan to one of his photos of me one of our first times hanging out, and one of the few (unidentifiable) photographs he kept of me on his flickr.


    You mad brilliant motherfucker. It’s a clown fish of course.

    The arc of white, the hint of orange, the edges of pink, the greenish color from the debris around the curb. [IG]

    Andrea Krux • Siren’s Song

    (Is this an older painting he’s reposting?)


    The August 21st [WFMU] playlist (now one week previous to this day) includes this image:

    This leads Stefan back to a Molly Crabapple drawing uploaded to flickr March 2018

    Stefan draws a battle of aquatic beasts, tinting it blue like the XTC album cover. He chooses a Rasputina song about listening (as in radio) to the ocean (as in grove).

    Rasputina • Sweet Water Kill
    (The Ocean Song)

    All along it was the ocean’s song
    That called me down to listen to her.
    Standing drenched by a 40ft. coral fence


    And now to the next week’s [WFMU] playlist posted just one day prior.

    In that radio show I talk about Oscar Levant, his creative brilliance and his lifelong struggles with drug use and mental illness.

    I mention [audio] how Levant’s television show was cancelled because of his comment: “Now that Marilyn Monroe is kosher, Arthur Miller can eat her.”


    and so Stefan is brought back to cupcakes.

    I am Stefan’s Marilyn, and he is eating me.

    Stefan photographs himself in the same pose, adds a brain that matches my panties with scribbles of madness above it. He sharpens the “perfect/purity” tattoo, like the script lettering of Oscar.

    Remembering. Recreating.


    Robert Palmer • Addicted To Love

    Another kiss and you’ll be mine
    A one-track mind, you can’t be saved
    Oblivion is all you crave

    He uses a song about both love and addiction.


    This portrait of Oscar Levant with a pensive upward expression, gleam in the eyes, and bar of shadow

    also brings Stefan back to this self portrait of mine from the Oean Grove days.

    Stefan combines them for his own self portrait.

    Nina Simone • I put a Spell on You

    I love you
    I love you
    I love you anyhow
    And I don’t care
    If you don’t want me
    I’m yours right now

    His caption:
    I have to stay in the shadows. Like a creature in hiding.

    September 2nd

    On that same [WFMU] playlist (August 27/28th), I post this Burt Lancaster gif for a radio play version of the film The Killers


    as well as the following gif to a song “Dead Skin Mask” to mark Ed Gein’s birthday.


    Ed Gein leads Stefan to this masked photo of me at his house holding a knife during October 2008.

    Stefan photographs himself with a knife like me [IG] but at the angle of killer Burt.

    Silent Hill Revelation

    September 8th

    September 5th, I fill in for a radio show that usually talks about cults. I use the opportunity to discuss disgraced comic book writer Warren Ellis.

    So Stefan posts a mic to the sound of white noise. [IG]

    September 9th

    Ranting me with hand outstretched from four days prior [IG] brings Stefan back to an old photograph of Colin.

    He combines them into a horror scene, giving the vampire my hair curls.

    Shredder 1984 • VHS Horror


    Vampires brings Stefan back to this photo of me from our last Halloween in 2009.

    And these two portraits of me from that same time period:

    October 2009

    February 2010

    He paints me with red hair and shiny red lips, the shirt matching the blue-green background.

    Timecop1983 • The Chase

    (I think this might be an older painting created when we were splitting?)


    April 2nd. I rant about anxiety and agoraphobia while walking down the street. [IG] He is posed similarly. [IG] When I’d panic and be in irrational tears at the prospect at going out, Stefan was always patient with me and calmly helped me get out of the house without annoyance.

    Soap&Skin • Safe With Me

    This street has closed
    For a ride undone
    This street has closed
    It could be unknown
    In the dark, my friend
    We’ll meet to blend
    A truth to lend
    For a day to spend
    A lovely scent
    That once been smelled
    That has no end
    It’s gaping up, midst through us
    It’s gaping up, midst through us
    It’s hard to find it
    When you’re in it
    It’s hard to find it
    When you’re into it
    The sun, replace it
    No safe, nor sound
    On a frozen ground

    No love can be safe with me
    No love can be safe with me
    No love can be safe with me
    No love can be safe with me

    His caption:
    I think the pixies need me

    His song lyrics talk about a street being closed.

    September 15th

    June 24th I attend a screening of Infinity Pool with Brandon Cronenberg. [IG] The film is about a bunch of vacationers at a swanky hotel compound resort.


    Their sitting poses lead Stefan to these photos in my Aunt’s basement.


    Brandon also leads Stefan back to this photo I took at a previous screening of Infinity Pool I’d attended.


    He combines the poster with his basement pose. [IG]

    His caption reads cooling off, as one does in a pool. The song is titled Hotel.

    The thumb under his lip.



    Montell Fish • Hotel

    I’m a slave to her, slave to her love
    I’m a slave to your love, it’s who you are that I-
    When I met you in that hotel room
    I could tell that you were so bad news
    But I keep messin’ with ya,
    And now you’re messin’ with me,
    I keep goin’ back to this hotel room
    I just don’t know what the hell to just tell you
    This hotel room you put me in, my love
    Ohh, I, I love you
    You know me, girl
    Better than I know myself, my love

    September 22nd

    August 5th I ramble about seeing Hamlet, with the following screenshot, tounge out, eyes to the side, trees behind me like hair flowing upwards. [IG]

    This brings Stefan to this Sticky Friends photo

    He recreates it. His face cropped where it would touch me.

    His caption “not amused” is in a script similar to “the sticky friends” and also placed in the lower left corner.

    AK, Liam Thomas • Peace of Mind



    September 11th, I rant about getting bedgraggled by the rain with straggly hair [IG]


    which leads him back to my terrible haircut [fb] from December 2021.


    Emika • Wicked Game

    I’d never dreamed that I’d love somebody like you
    No-one could save me
    No-one could save me
    No-one could save me
    No-one could save me

    I’d never dreamed that I’d love somebody like you

    He combines them. [IG]

    He is holding a towel, because I was drenched from rain.

    He even made the same bits of hair stick up.

    September 24th

    From my radio show playlist [WFMU] posted the same day.

    He draws on a pizza box. [IG]

    Carmina Burana

    The checkers mimicking the harlequin diamonds, the circle like this collar ruffle, the yellow chick with pink feet to balance the color, the animated glyphs to emulate the lightbulb design.

    September 29th

    July 29th. Me and Ozzie cat [IG] become an adorable bat. [IG]


    Dosi • Spooky Forest

    The veins in my arm make that same fish-like shape on the wing.

    September 30th

    This gif (of Keith Flint of The Prodigy on The Venture Brothers) posted to my September 24th [WFMU] playlist one week prior

    leads Stefan to this 2015 hair sprawl upload with protruding tongue.

    My hair curls, the hole where once I had a tongue ring inspiring the button.


    August 8th. Me in a pink helmet with technicolor skeleton background [IG]

    leads Stefan to a similar childhood photo of my mother.

    He combines them, dark blue of her uniform, hair swirls and ears from the green skeleton ribcage, the orange skeleton behind me now a pumpkin, the green skeleton becomes the skull face. [IG]

    October 5th

    Spooky season.

    A doodle I’d drawn during the WFMU marathon in 2016 in reference to someone uttering the phrase “the taint of ickiness”. [IG] Stefan is reminded of this while looking at pumpkins, and frames and tints them appropriately. [IG]

    The sticker nearby matching the color and shape of the pumpkin stem, the branches emulating the arrow of my drawn sign.

    Max Duff • Spooky Season


    Octobers past.
    Hanging in my Aunt’s garage / backyard taking pictures in 2009.

    Remembering. Recreating. [IG]

    Rasputina • Olde Dance


    Two weeks prior, this Spielberg/Columbo gif on my radio playlist [WFMU] with a blue truck and reflection in the mirror

    brings Stefan back to this photo of my friend and I in Ocean Grove, reflected in my sunglasses.


    which leads him to other photographs of me and that friend in the same [flickr] album.

    He combines her into a cartoon, her tattoo becomes a T-shirt design [IG] with the blue of my sweater.


    Octobers past.
    Our 2007 Halloween photos.

    Which he’s now combined with this exchange from April 2010, when Stefan emailed me a cute animal photo.

    My reply:

    So he photographs pumpkins like us. [IG]

    I’m still the duck.

    October 10th

    This video from March of me with Miss Kitka…

    leads Stefan to this 2008 photo when Stefan digitally turned me into a cat for some reason.

    His photo is deceptively demonic, but the tail changes it to cat, the horns/ears blurred like the monitor in the foreground of my video, his hand like me petting my cat.

    Hans Zimmer • Despair


    Octobers past.
    Pumpkins framed to look huge in a doorway [IG] like our photo from 2007.

    October 11th

    August 26th, I post about seeing the broadway play Goodnight Oscar [IG]

    which brings Stefan back to this Ocean Grove shot:

    Red leaves for the red floral pattern of my dress. [IG]

    Timecop1983 • It Was Only a Dream

    Eyes closed. Remembering. Recreating.

    October 16th

    no song is by chance. [IG]

    Simply Red•Holding Back the Years
    Holding back the years
    Thinking of the fear I’ve had so long
    When somebody hears
    Listen to the fear that’s gone


    My [WFMU] playlist from October 15th, one day prior, includes this gif of David Bowie and this album cover.

    which leads Stefan to this photograph at dawn of our first days in Ocean Grove.

    He adds the romantic gesture of Vulcan Sarek and his human wife, also on this playlist.

    My accidental transparent ghostly skull face is combined with Sarek’s pose and the red of his scenery for Stefan’s spooky selfie [IG]

    Alice In Chains•Grind
    In the darkest hole, you’d be well advised
    Not to plan my funeral ‘fore the body dies, yeah
    Come the morning light, it’s a see through show
    What you may have heard and what you think you know, yeah

    He posts a song about morning light (dawn) and “see through” (my face).


    Atlantic Starr•Always
    Girl you are to me, all that a woman should be
    And I dedicate my life to you always
    A love like yours is grand
    It must have been sent from up above
    And I know you’ll stay this way, for always
    And we both know, that our love will grow
    And forever it will be you and me, hey
    Ooh your life is sun
    Chasing all of the rain away
    When you come around you bring brighter days
    You’re the perfect one
    For me and you, forever we’ll be
    And I will love you so for always


    February 2010. Originally titled ANDROID STEF, part of one of the few sticky type shoots he tried without me when we split. Pinky tattoo clearly visible. [flickr]

    Now, he’s blue again, his exercise bands looped around him. He is covering up his forearms, covering Marilyn’s eyes, don’t look. [IG]



    Roman Nagel • Passacaglia

    “I’m not so delicate with myself” reads the caption.



    passacaglia: Italian, from Spanish passacalle, or pasacalle; “street song”



    [IG]

    This starts a trend where he places his hoodie string or necklace between the H glyph and his LXXXI tattoos whenever reclined. It’s a consistent pattern. I hadn’t originally thought the roman numerals were related to me, but now I suspect it might have a dual meaning for “Love foXXX, I”? A war between love and addiction, keeping those worlds separated?

    October 17th

    Octobers past.
    One year prior, I post about a new favorite movie. [IG] He replicates the bare shoulders and even a similar background as the vomitous woman. [IG]

    October 23rd

    Octobers past.

    Next to Triangle of Sadness from one year prior is this photo of my radio guest Mike Hunchback and I.

    And this photo, also from the previous October, at Comic Con

    His eyes and hairline, my hair, the chairs behind me inspiring the mouth and my hair making for a curved trail of drool.

    Alice In Chains • Grind


    Octobers past.
    One year prior, a promo for my radio show. [IG]

    Stefan recreates it with a hood and a diagonal of red. [IG] The H on his neck blurred away.

    His caption reads: “Things once familiar start changing at midnight.”


    September 11th of this year I wander the hallways of WFMU, which are covered in velvet paintings and other artworks. I’d been caught in a downpour on my way to the station, and had misplaced my damp underthings. [IG]

    In his selfie, water is in the background, matching my shirt color and the theme of water, a bag on his shoulder, like I have. Again, using a leaf to match colors to the reference photo. [IG]

    Matteo Curallo•Palazzo Medici



    (Palazzo Medici is a palace covered in artworks.)

    His caption: “I followed the example.”

    October 24th

    October 2007. A photo he took in Ocean Grove.

    vs a new Halloween photo with one eye [IG]


    Octobers past.

    It was our first Halloween together when we saw Rasputina.

    Green lit hair becomes fire, corset patterns inspire a wtich hat, etc. [IG]

    October 27th

    Looking at the previous autumn, this post from November 2022. [IG]

    The pattern of the wallpaper above my head is reminiscent of an animal skull with horns



    which brings Stefan back to this photo I’d taken of him at dawn in April of 2009.

    He combines them.

    Depeche Mode • I Feel You
    I feel you
    Within my mind
    You take me there
    You take me where
    The kingdom comes
    You take me to
    And lead me through
    Babylon
    This is the morning of our love
    It’s just the dawning of our love
    I feel you
    Your heart it sings
    I feel you
    The joy it brings
    Where heaven waits
    Those golden gates
    And back again
    You take me to
    And lead me through
    Oblivion

    His forearm still bandaged, the H on his neck similarly concealed with black. lyrics about the morning and dawning of our love, and leading him through oblivion, but the trinity knot is fading away.

    October 28th

    Continuing with 2009…

    June 2009. My self portrait, sad at my Aunt’s house, right before things got bad between Stefan and I .

    He makes a self portrait, horns inspired by hair tendrils, the glint in my eye the same color as his blue green background of his photo. [IG]

    His caption: “you should leave”


    More 2009. Photos from our trip to the Passaic River.

    He draws himself into a zombie. [IG]

    Timecop1983 • Nightfall


    From the [WFMU] playlist two weeks prior, this album cover

    brings him back to this selfie on my way to Fox Fest 2010

    and other photos from my drive down to Fox Fest [flickr]

    In his portrait the tone and diagonals are mimicked, and then the photograph right above with trees and clouds that look like bats in flight, and then another shot of sky that looks of fire, with a silhouette of trees. He chooses the song “Bad Seed” as I’m on my way to my family reunion. [IG]


    Life Of Agony • Bad Seed
    Am I to blame?
    If I won’t speak her name, if I won’t face her grave
    Maybe I’m to blame, maybe I’m to blame
    Since you’re gone, I’ve never felt the same
    Well maybe I’m just a bad seed
    Of the family
    I’ll get my sleep without tear-stained sheets
    And I’ll never come cryin’ for sympathy
    Well I need a place to run to
    Yeah I need a place to hide
    Yeah I need a place where I don’t need a smile as my disguise


    This image from the same [WFMU] playlist two weeks prior

    leads Stefan back to this silly photo with my dad.


    and this dorky photo from childhood in the same [flickr] folder.

    Using the colors of bathingsuit me, and elements from the other images he draws a strange portrait with Lillian Gish’s hair, goggle inspired eyes, etc. [IG]

    Relax MusicBox • Horror Song


    He recalls a 2017 cityscape autoupload of mine [flickr] in his surroundings.

    Rhaeide • Silent Hill 2 – Promise 

    [IG]

    He chooses a song from Silent Hill, where similar words of light and dark collide.


    Octobers past (and more).

    I’d send him a silly phone pics every time he left Ocean Grove to drive home. He combines them into one drawing. [IG]

    October 29th

    Octobers past.

    From 2017.

    I’d gone to see Phantom of the Opera at the local movie palace. I’d posted it to instagram, but Stefan uses photographs I’d not posted that were autosaved to my flickr.

    In Stefan’s drawing, phone hand becomes claw hands, columns become trees, chandelier lights becomes ghosts. [IG]

    Grim Reaper Players • Eerie Music


    Octobers past.

    2017 again. Back to this Halloween event, held in a graveyard.

    Stefan draws me as a zombie. [IG]

    The Meridian Studio Orchestra • Night of the Living Dead

    Soundtrack to Night of the Living Dead. He had me watch it for the very first time.


    Octobers past.
    2009. A selfie [flickr] and then the Haunted Hayride right beside it [flickr]

    He combines my faces into a zombie, the eye color taken from the bathroom tile behind me. [IG]

    90’s Lofi Rap, Beats De Rap


    Octobers past.
    2009. The Haunted Hayride, exactly twelve years previous. Our last Halloween together.

    He crops his image where the hoodie hits him, a line of wall over his shoulder, Marilyn beside him. [IG]


    Marilyn’s caption reads: Who’s going to protect me?

    It was just a week after this that my brain-leak headache began and I was left bedridden for weeks.

    Relax MusicBox • Horror Song

    October 31st

    And again…

    combining our faces. Red behind me.


    Octobers past.
    October 8th 2009. Hanging out with Stefan in my Aunt’s garage.

    My mirror selfie leads Stefan to this similar selfie from February 2012.

    Stefan draws the curls of hair from the ornate mirror, the same dorky haircut, but with the height of the orange hat, and my bleached away eyebrows. The blue glow from the window in the background. [IG]

    Ambient Realms • Erie Crypt


    Again, October 8th 2009. This photograph of Stefan…

    …leads him back to a photograph of my ex-girlfriend from 2001.

    He combines them into a drawing of a werewolf. [IG]

    Aphex Twin•#14


    Two days prior. I post my Halloween season outfit with my skullhead cane from William Berger [IG]

    which leads Stefan to October 2017, the photos from when I first received the cane after William died [IG]

    right next to the cane is this photo of my tights. [IG]

    He draws a skull with the colors of my tights / fishnets. [IG]

    November 10th

    Again, my halloween season outfit from days prior, my leaning forward while wearing fishnets…

    leads him to January 3rd 2022, when I post a photo comparison between 2021

    and 2001 [IG]

    He creates a selfie combining elements, the pendant poking out. [IG]

    The Dixie Cups • I’m Gonna Get You Yet
    I say love is in season
    But I can’t find a reason
    Why you let me down
    When I come around
    I’m gonna keep on trying
    What you bet?
    ‘Cause I’m gonna to get you ye-e-et
    I’m gonna get you yet

    November 14th

    I know the Sticky Friends photograph this is from, with his back covered in scratches, but I can’t for the life of me find it.

    Beautyscar • Cry Little Sister

    November 19th

    My [WFMU] playlist from October 29th (three weeks prior) included this gif of the Ghostbusters:

    and this one of Buckethead:

    which leads Stefan back to this tagged photo of me taken by WFMU’s Jeff Moore. [fb]

    Stefan posts a selfie combining my pose with the skin tones and browns of the Ghostbusters. [IG]

    The Breeders • Happiness Is A Warm Gun


    My fill-in WFMU playlist from four days prior includes this gif of Megan Mullally:

    which takes Stefan back to this selfie of mine from 2008 [flickr]

    He combines the colors to a plant based scene. [IG]

    Little Shop of Horrors

    November 25th

    On that same fill-in radio show, now one week prior, I discuss the scandal around youtuber Colleen Ballinger, AKA “Miranda Sings”, who Stefan first showed me years ago. I post this gif on my [WFMU] playlist

    which leads him back to this photo. [flickr] (He really likes this picture. He took it, I tweaked it.)

    He draws a portrait, combining our faces into one, the blue from the shadows behind me. [IG]

    Aphex Twin•#14

    November 27th

    The month prior, I’d posted this video comparing my accidental aesthetic to that of a generic character from Blake’s 7. [fb]

    This leads Stefan back to October of 2018 with me dressed up for Halloween as Blake’s 7 villain Servalen. [IG]

    My drapey top inspires a bath theme, diagonal rain like the diagonal stripes of my top, the pointy ears and nose shape from the Blakes 7 logo, the large eyes from the 3 beside my head, the earrings and lips matching my lips, the hair curling like the hair from beneath my bike helmet. [IG]

    December 1st

    Two days prior, I post examples of ideal romance, real or fictional. Her bare shoulder and his profile pose from Farscape [fb]

    leads Stefan back to this self portrait of medical laser treatment [flickr]

    the overall pose of Farscape and the facelessness of my laser photo leads Stefan back to this photo of his that he’d tweaked to graininess and blurred out his own face.

    Two photos of facelessness combined in his portrait. In this new mashup, he’s duplicated his high contrast and grainy texture with my pose. Blue from the highlights of the Farscape outfits. Marilyn visible.

    Gerrit Wunder • London 1888: Jack the Ripper

    December 3rd

    Two weeks prior, I post a video about having broken two ribs. [IG] My scrunchy facial expression

    leads him back to this photo of us. [flickr]

    The swirl is where the recessed light fixture is in his photo. [IG]

    Eyes closed. Remembering. Recreating

    December 4th

    September of this year, I post the trip down the Jersey City PATH escalator, with a diagonal of red neon. [IG]

    This brings Stefan to childhood photographs of me with askew red hats. [flickr]

    He combines them, the cinching of my flower girl dress replicated, using the blue color behind beret me for his drawing, adding glowy highlights like the neon, his pencil at a diagonal like the escalator railing. [IG]

    December 5th

    Christmastime brings him back to our Christmas photos from 2008.

    He’s made himself yellow like the christmas lighting, and he’s wearing a bow. Marilyn is positioned right beside paper on the ground next to a wooden chair, colors grey and desaturated like the photograph of me. [IG]

    Antent • hope to see you again

    Remembering. Recreating.


    One month prior, November 19th, I post this gif to my [WFMU] playlist

    which leads Stefan to this photo he took of me in Ocean Grove / Asbury Park, hands against glass. [flickr]

    and then, in turn, this photo he also took of me in Ocean Grove August 2008

    Stefan draws me as a child, the poses combined in red and blue. [IG]

    December 8th

    That same November 19th [WFMU] playlist posts these gifs of Alan Moore


    Alan Moore’s hands and The Lost Girls poster behind him


    brings Stefan back again to this Sticky Christmas photo from 2008.


    And then this Sticky Christmas photo [flickr]

    A portrait wearing Christmas lights, with the pose of my arms and the color of Milhouse’s hair and glasses. [IG]

    Another captioned “Needs”.

    December 18th

    That same November radio playlist includes Stewart Lee and a duck penis [WFMU]

    which leads Stefan back to this Sticky Friends [flickr]

    The shirt he wore in the photo was pink so he tints his new photo pink. [IG]

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